The time is at a point where it feels like it's going too fast. I cannot believe ILW 2023 is only four weeks away. I think I have material things ready, not to just get myself ready and learn to work through my fears and anxieties about competing. Like many people, I have an inside voice that is constantly yelling and shouting at me that I am not capable of doing what I am trying to do. I am too dumb, too ugly, not popular enough, etc. I sometimes fight this inside voice every day.
Fighting fears and anxieties on a daily basis can be very taxing on the mind and body. For most of my life, I was always brought up in a negative environment that gave birth to that inside voice that is inside my head. The last year really brought that inside voice to the forefront of my mind. I am going through a divorce, moved to a new city, started a new job, and moved in with my sir. I kind of took a step back and started focusing on myself and what my life would be like from now on.
Skip forward to now and here I am competing for Iowa Pet at ILW 2023. The fight against my anxieties is ongoing but I have learned methods to deal with it and have a circle of chosen family that I know I can lean on when I need it. I have also begun doing activities that can be meditative. I am doing diamond paintings and some adult coloring. They allow me to escape things and clear my mind. After clearing my mind I am able to make better decisions.
As ILW 2023 gets closer I will continue to try and keep myself centered and balanced. I cannot wait to meet new and old friends. And to all the new experiences I will have competing for a title for the first time. Everyone that I have talked to for advice has been super helpful and supportive. I know I will do great and I have some pawsome competitors this year. Let's have a good time and give them one hell of a show!
Don't forget to take time to take care of yourself, both mentally and physically. Therapy, counseling, medication, or whatever works for you to bring yourself to a good place. And don't forget to stay hydrated! I love everyone and hope to see you all at ILW2023